a cold steel rail

Today happens to just be one of those days, you know, those days were you feel down, but there is every reason for you to feel up. I am happy, but I'm sad too, it's weird, maybe it has something to do with me feeling kinda sick, which is discouraging. I like fall and winter; I like the cold, but it gets dark too early. At least it was sunny today, but I was inside too much , alone, well not really alone, but I needed to be outside more.
The thing is last night was just a really nice night spent with my girlfriend, I kinda wish every night could be like that. I wish I had a better way to describe it. When I think back to last night I'm really happy, but when I stop thinking about it I feel a sense of apathy and I feel sad, sad isn't the right word, but I'll say I was sad. I just needed to write this down.

"Don't know whether or not

how sad i just got
was of my own volition
or it I'm just missing the sun"
-Relient K