now

Well, this is my first entry. I need to put some thoughts on paper so I don't forget them. Hopefully someone will get something out of reading this besides me. I'm writing to you and whether you know me or not because there is someone out there who shares these memories with you, whether or not I have a specific person in mind doesn't make a difference; I believe similar feelings are experienced with at least one person in your life. Thats how I want this to be read.

Right now I am trying to take things as them come. A lot of people around me are worrying about all the changes that will happen next year, how different each of our worlds will be, who will still be there, who won't. Things change and we should not hold it against someone for losing touch. You part ways, its not that you didn't care for each other, there is only so much time we have and its really not that much. By no means am I saying don't keep in touch with people, I know I will, but if it does not happen, I won't be upset because I know I enjoyed the time we did spend together and thats what matters. At least that what matters to me.

The point I am trying to get at is: enjoy now, this moment, right here because thats really all we have. What is important is that we have each other now, that we care about each other now, we laugh together now, we cry together now. If things are different tomorrow, then so be it, but I can't let that take away from the joy we had then, it was then we were happy, and our lives connected then, and thats what we had and I'm glad we had it. And if tomorrow you're gone I'll miss you, but if thats the way its going to be, then I'm going to look back and be glad about what we had then and how much it meant to us.

"The roses under my window make no reference to former roses or better ones; they are what they are; they exist with God today. There is no time to them. There is simply the rose; it is perfect in every moment of its existence."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson