18

I thought this deserved its own seperate post.

Last Monday this kid my friends are friends with (I've seen him around and I know his sister) ODed on Morphine. He was 18. Even though I didn't really know him it's upsetting just hearing about it. He was 18, thats just not fair, but life isn't fair and he made stupid decisions; morphine is not something to fuck around with (or any opiate for that matter). I feel so bad for his sister and family. Events like this really shake me up and make me think (more than I normally do, although that is hard), you never know what life is going to throw at you; I guess the only thing you can do is try to make the best decisions possible, hang on for the ride and be happy to be alive.

New Year Recap

So this is my first post of the New Year. I probably would have posted a lot more times if my computer did not epicly fail on me. I am thankful I got a smartphone recently because that has served as my computer (it even has MS Word! but I don't really use that).
Christmas break was pretty wonderful. I got to spend almost everyday with this girl that I really care about. That was definitely the best part. I wish I could see her everyday.
On the first Friday of break I went on an adventure to Brooklyn with that amazing girl and a few friends to see The Banned reunion show. It was the most incredible show I have ever been to in my life (not counting the time I saw Jethro Tull). My friend Bobby is in No One and the Somebodies, they played and they were awesome. The Banned was ridiculously good, I wish they were still together. Apparently they are related to my AP Euro teacher, who I saw there, probably the most random thing to ever happen to me considering who this teacher is.
Not that anyone should care, but I got a Zune to replace my old iPod, so far I like it better.
Something that is a little unsettling recently is that my girlfriend has decided to go to try out for a play at my school's rival all-boy prep school. I really do want to her to get the part that she wants (and deserves because she is talented), and I'm behind whatever she decides to do, I'm happy when shes happy. I'm not a selfish guy. I'm not really sure why it bothers me, but it does.

Thought of the Day

If ignorance is bliss, I'd rather be in hell.

Turkeys!

On the morning of December 12, 2008 at 8:08 AM four turkey's crossed in front of my car. I did the responsible thing of speeding up while slamming on the horn. 2 of them successfully crosses the street. 1 jumped a little and made it. The other turkey which was directly in front of my car literally flew/jumped 11 feet in the air and I drove under it. I proceeded to shit bricks. Holy shit turkeys can fly.

A Little Clichè

Alright so this isn't something I would normally make into a blog entry, but I don't care today. So there is this girl that I'm dating and I'm hopelessly in love with her. Although I am frustrated at her awesomeness because I space out during important things because I am thinking about her so much. Actually I don't really mind too much because I can't think of a better way to spend my time (besides being with her). Well anyway I just wanted to write down how in love I am with her.

Surreal

I'm still afraid that today was just a dream and I'm going to wake up and nothing was real. Around 1 PM today I found out I was admitted to Bucknell, which I applied early decision. Then after school I spent an amazing rest of the day with my girlfriend, who I love dearly.

So Much Beauty in the World

"I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time. For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout Camp, watching falling stars. And yellow leaves, from the maple trees that lined our street. Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper. And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird. And Janie... and Janie. And... Carolyn. I guess I could be really pissed off about what happened to me, but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain. And I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday."

This is the end monologue of one of my favorite movies, American Beauty, I quoted a piece of it in my senior quote.

I've heard this and read it so many times and its almost brought me to tears, but today I sort of feel more of an understanding of it than ever before. At this moment right now I really do feel like there is just so much beauty in the world, everywhere I look. I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in or about to burst, like the quote says, but I can't do anything about it. Right now I don't want to let go of it; I don't really think I can even if I wanted to. So right now I am sitting in my chair at my computer screen in pain from how happy I am; although pain might not be the right word because I love it at the same time. Today was a wonderful day.